Through the Iris

The title of this blog is the title of a song by the band, 10 Years. There is a verse in the song that says, "Disappear and dissolve, a weakening wall will one day fall.." This verse kind of defines who I am. When I was 12, something happened that I never would have imagined, my grandmother decided to end her own life. Because of this, my world turned upside down and I did not know or care about what was going to happen next. You could say that I had built up a wall that I would not let anyone tear down. This wall was my comfort zone, a place where I would retreat when I couldn't handle what life was throwing at me. Over time, with encouragement and the power of prayer, that wall weakened and while it is still up, I believe that it will completely fall very soon. I am still not over my grandmother's death, nor will I ever be, but I am dealing with it in my own way and am better now than I have ever been and I've decided to live life as it comes and not waste a single day.